::Wednesday, July 8, 2009::

Here i'm back again! (: Today, nothing much to do. Clean my room, watch tv and.. just wait and wait for my dear to call or msg. He did msg me and inform me that he will be back on sat. Hais. I thought he will be out on friday but.. nvm. Hehes. VERY BORING now. Just don't know what i want to do. I will wait for you.. but till when? Feel like it's still a long way to go. Hais.. If u read this, don't worry because i will always be there for you and love you always ok? Ok, i think i will just stop for now. Haha. Gue kangen banget sama dia! Cepatan balik yah jadi gue tak lonely!(:

::stepped into the rain at Wednesday, July 08, 2009::

::Thursday, June 25, 2009::

Well. So, yesterday outing? It was realy2 great! Already plan to go out with Niyah, ayu, siti and me. Plan that we will go to marina barrage. Change plan to East Coast because i wanted to go there. Niyah agreed and the next day, she msg siti. Told siti, to just meet up at jurong. Jurong? Jurong have nothing! I got fed up and told siti, "just tell her that we can't make it". So it ends up, ONLY siti and me because we still wants to continue with our plan. She's the 1 who plan everyting and she's the one who keep changing places and ends up, she can't make it. Haiyo! Gave reasons. BLAH..BLAH..BLAH. Ayu? Very excited the day before and the next day, find out that she's not feeling well. Don't know whether it's true or not. HACK CARE lah. The attitude still haven't change abit. Although only siti, her sis and me, we enjoyed spending our LONELY times together. Haha. Right siti?

First, siti accompany me to clementi. Finding a hp without the camera for hashaf. The phone that i gave him, already abit sort2. Haha. Then we walk to clementi interchange and it was drizziling. We don't mind walking.. Hehe. Then, we took pics inside MRT and we had alot of things to talk all the way till we reach habourfront. We are still the same. Talkative. HAHA. Meet her mum and sister when we reach there. Then we go tour2 around that place. Suddenly there's this 1 mat salleh called siti. His actually trying to promote something. So siti tried. It COST $60 but we get half of the price. So, siti and her sister, faezah think..think and decided to buy. HAHA. We thought without niyah and ayu, we can't enjoy and have fun but actually it was more fun without them. It will be more fun if mizza join us along but she was busy.. Next time ok mizza?(: So, now just enjoy myself and be independant without him because i know that he will not always be with me all the time. This is the time that i have to do everything by my ownself.. (:

*You will always be in my heart..*

::stepped into the rain at Thursday, June 25, 2009::

::Wednesday, April 29, 2009::

WORK?
For the last few months, i've been finding jobs and finally i get work at _____ . Wah. Quite tiring! The place very quiet and it's very2 dark. I don't dare to go back alone. But i have to work because i'm not schooling animore. For what if i stay at home and do nothing right.. Hm, i've plan to work there atleast for 3 month but let's just see. Hehe. Everytime go back home late around 11+ so maybe 1 day i will quit once i find a new job as a full-time. For now, lucky hashaf work with me so i don't really feel bored. Hahas. Atleast i have someone to go back with. But soon he will quit.. WHY? Because NS already call him.. Haiyo!

LONELY?
YAH. Hashaf going NS soon. So i'm going to be lonely soon. But then, i don't know what am i going to do. Continue working at _____ ? OR find another job? Now economy is not good if i quit, it will be more difficult for me. Hais.. Ok. There's this 1 day, i cried. There's something that makes me cry lah. Haha. Strange because it's like out of sudden. Cried infront of hashaf and siti? Haiyo. I think i started to be abit more sensitive now. Hehehe. And i think it's time for me to be independant now. (:

*Once it's a promise, means it's a promise..*

::stepped into the rain at Wednesday, April 29, 2009::

::Thursday, April 16, 2009::

Today's 16 and yesterday, 15april09, the day that i'm waiting for.. It was my 3 yrs anniversary with hashaf! Yeah.. Hopefully hashaf will read it. Well for 2 months we can't celebrate our anniversary together. Why? Last month, he went to tioman and dis month he went to london. How about nxt month? Hopefully he will be in singapore. Hahas.. I really do MISS HIM ALOT actually! Bt i have to sacrifice lah. I ask mizza to tell me whenever she see hashaf online. She did tell me bt by the time i online, he already offline.. Hais... How i feel when i can't celebrate this special day.. I felt so lonely but i'm not mad at him at all. Hehe. Today i get the chance to read all of his post and started to feel sad and started to miss him even more.. 1wk ok.. Of course we will have this feeling when the person you love are not there for you.. I will always wait for you but i'm sorry dear.. I can't fetch u this saturday but confirm your dad and sis will fetch you right? We will meet other day ok? Haha..

Btw.. i went for an interview on tues and i'm waiting for their call by fri.. Lucky i have mizza to accompany me. If not, i will not go. Hahaha. I'm afraid being alone actually that is why i need someone with me where ever i go. Hehe. I'm hoping for that job because i'm already sick and tired of finding jobs.. Although the place are very quiet and abit scary but this will be only for part-time while i'm searching for another jobs.. My parents wants hashaf to work with me for safety. Hahaha.. They really care about me alot but then it depends if hashaf wants. So, please pray hard for me friends..

*Waiting for you..LOVE U HASHAF!!!!*

::stepped into the rain at Thursday, April 16, 2009::

::Thursday, February 19, 2009::

I'm hapi nw cos 'he' didn't cntct me animre. Ouh.. Thnks tuh myself 4 being daring. Hehes. Sumtyms i feel abit strange wif my lyfe. Don knw wad's rong.. Hm, well.. Nw shud i talk abt sacrifices? Ouh yes, shud u guys sacrifice ur frenship or love? I nd answer frm u guys. Hehes. Btw, wanna let evrione knw dt tuh me, i prefer people change tuh be betta person. BUT nt change into a bad person.. Der's alwaes a BIG reason y people change ryte..?(: And i tink, i'm changing too.. For u tuh find oud. Hahas..

Nw i'm trying realy hard tuh find a job. Hais. Those hu cn recommend me, i will realy apreciate it.. 31 mar will be de result weder i gt tuh continue school or nt.. Hopefully i gt cos i still wanna continue studying. Pls pray hard for me aites everione..

*Keep on loving you.

::stepped into the rain at Thursday, February 19, 2009::

::Tuesday, February 17, 2009::

Nw evriting's over.. bt 1 ting have nt settle. I'm nw ignoring someone dat realy2 make me fed-up. And dt make's hym mre hard tuh leave me. De same person dt i'm refering to. Well, i hav NEVER have feelings 2wards hym ok. Bt he used tuh treated me as if lyk im hys gf? And trying tuh cntrl my lyfe? Wad de ???? seh! Telling me nt tuh 100% fall in love wif de person I LOVE? Hu r u seh tuh cntrl my lyfe huh? Altgh u've been waiting for me for dt 2yrs, doesn't mean dt will make me easily fall for u and go tuh u n leave my bf. GILER peh? Think first uh bfor u say aniting tuh me! U're reaction, it shows evriting n i knw u're JEALOUS. Frens doesn't cntct evridae ryte? So it's up tuh me weder i wanna reply ur msg or answer ur call. And, btw.. I trusted my boifren mre den i trusted u okay?

I knw wad tuh do wif my lyfe.. Altgh u show me ur concern, doesn't mean u're sincere. Jus dt, u wanna make me hapie. For wad? Der's someone dt i cn treat as a fren. He' s bad n alwaes create trouble BUT he's nice n respect me as a gal. He's a gd listener wen i hav probs. Treat me well cos we are FRENS. He didnt treat me lyk hw u treated me.. Nw, i lost a fren lyk hym. Cos he will be goin tuh detention barrack. A prison for n.s people. I dun wan anione tuh tink dt he's a destroyer or taking an advntage. He knws hw a guy/gal feels wen losing someone dey really love. We care for ech oder.. And der will b ONLY 1 person in my heart.. So plss dn tink negative..

*Treasuring someone dt i love altgh its hard..

::stepped into the rain at Tuesday, February 17, 2009::

::Thursday, February 5, 2009::

Quite shocking.. My fren, lost cntct for 2ys aredy n out of sudden, he cntct me bck since last few days.. Giving me alot of reasons y he cntct me bck. hais.. Hw long he hav been waiting 4 me? 2yrs! It's unbelievable cos 2ys.. N i thght dt i will neva cntct hym animre once i'm attached. So yeah.. He still waiting for sumone.. Tuh tell de truth, i knw hys feelings 2wards me.. Bt i cnt do anitin for hym. I cn only acept hym as a fren or mayb.. As a bezfren bt nt mre den dt.. I'm so sorie..

Dat is y i decided tuh giv my sista tuh u.. So u cn gt closer tuh her instead of me.. I knw, altgh its hard for u tuh love her.. As wad u've told me.. I'm undrstnding n caring bt nw i'm attached.. I cnt be de gal dt u knw last tym.. Everiting has chnge nw my fren.. N plss stop msg-ing me n tok abt my sis.. And yeah, nw i remember de sentence dt u last msg me.. N wad u told my sis.. Dt i'm jahat? I'm nt JAHAT! I'm attach nw n dat's y i've forgotten u.. I jus cnt acept u mre den a fren... Pls undrstnd my situation..

*Lyfe will alwaes keep changing..

::stepped into the rain at Thursday, February 05, 2009::

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